“Giving you the real.”
I’ve lost a lot of what I’ve had recently. I let things slip away without even knowing that they did. It sucks, and I’ve been trying to do me the best way I can but as much as I keep grinding things will keep slipping away. That’s the hustle though. I’ve lost people, money, etc. It’s been the hardest to try to keep going knowing that just months ago my life was crazy awesome. I still love my life but it’s harder to love it seeing as though I see it all falling down right before my eyes. But this is preparing me for the next step…Success. I keep it real on these posts because I want my fans to know that I’m just like you. I’m no rich kid, I don’t have a million dollars, I don’t have cool cars, nor clothes, nor anything you see other rappers flash. It’s crazy how people assume I’m that dude…I am that dude, just not as much of THAT DUDE as you think I am…dude. I feel sorry for the girl I’m with now. As much as I’m confident that I’m the best guy she’s had in a long while I feel I haven’t reached my pinnacle with her yet because of my financial stability, and also the fact that I can’t drive. She’s also been hearing me vent about my recent stresses with life and I don’t want her sitting through some cry-baby kid who can’t handle the burn. It’s hard being that kid that can’t get around. She’s used to a bigger life that I’m showing her, and the only extra-ordinary material thing I can show her is my fame. Other than that, I’m just an awesome sexy kid. But that only goes so far. Also, having your dad drive an hour to pick her up only goes so far. I’m scared that “more” will be what she asks for. Scared is what I am about this…I just hope I can show her who I am and how I REALLY do. I’m just waiting patiently for this ish to drop, because once it does, I’ll be happy. You’ll see…January is going to be great… Never mind. 2012 will be. Let’s work hard. Anyway, that’s the real for tonight…I hope I can get this date together with this girl tomorrow. I honestly don’t know what I’m doing. Goodnight.
PS.
I’m losing sanity…Haven’t recorded a song in a month and a half…Must…get…off…Hiatus. Thank you.
