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Only 2 and a half days left until Flagship. I feel this will be the one and the fans are hyped. I think I’m just as hyped to listen as well. It’s erking me! I’ve been spending more time with family and blessed to see my mom getting better each day. I’m happy for what I have. A great album, my mother living, my family being there, great friends, a great team, and just the privilege to wake up every day and see the sunlight pop into my room.

All I can really say now is that I’m happy that I’ve been shown the light through absent people. The people who never bothered to see my mother after her surgery, the people who skipped out on my family and I and never helped, and most of all the people who were all not there for me in my time of depression. You made me see who was really important. 

Flagship.

Lately I’ve been so busy I forgot how it’s been to be depressed. Of course I’ve had my alarming sad moments but I’ve been working and having my head in a lot of different places. My mother has been sick, and a lot of you may know the struggles she’s under. It gets to my head at the most random times and my thoughts switch off so quickly that I get emotional about it; but shake it off with thoughts of getting certain things done. I’ve learned so much about myself in 2 weeks just by working, and spending time with myself to see what I really want in life…Which is my music career.

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I’ve made some stupid decisions the past 5 days, had some funny times, and some choices that a younger me would make but I felt the need to make them at the time by emotional drive from everything that’s been going on. I blamed all my stupid decisions on the fact of being young but we all know that doesn’t work all the time. So to all the people I’ve disappointed or annoyed, I’m sorry and it won’t happen again.

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Let’s just say I felt tired of being strong, and felt tired of being my own leader. Bad decision but I guess I needed it because mistakes always lead to new lessons.

I miss my mom, didn’t even get to talk to her on mother’s day but once I get home I’m going to show her how much she means to me..Life’s crazy.

All for this album though.

I love my team. MARSMG.

Flagship, June 3rd.

Co-Shot by: Cole Cook

I’m hanging off a building with one finger..I can break down at any time but I can’t let it get to me. I have a huge family burden that has been going down the past 2 weeks, and so much stress from the goings of my career. I’ve been losing sleep, and really getting tired during days. I really wish I had somebody to hold my hand through it but just like every major struggle I have once a year I’m going through it by myself. It sucks but life goes on. Head first, eyes open, and the only person I have to depend on is myself. This album honestly has to go…It has to change everything. I don’t want to let anybody down, because me? I’m hanging, AND I’m about to fall.

But nothing will get me to give up. Nothing.

Last year I lost so much.

This year I won’t let that happen.

Mom, I’m doing this for us. Keep strong, don’t give up and I won’t. 

And for the fans…

You’re all we got.

Flagship, June 3rd.

Been wanting one since 15. Before I signed my record deal I was going to hop up in the shop and get my neck done but I then heard about my opportunity to sign a record deal and told myself to hold off the ink game for a bit. I had so many ideas, still stuck to them and they show mad symbolism of course. I’m not the type to only get them for sure. Of course I stick to the art of it yadda yadda yadda but I was always into having art travel with me like music does. I wanted to be fully tatted up by 18. Looks like that didn’t happen hahahahahaha. I would of looked like Tyga. I love the idea of tattoos. Ever since Eminem, and even watching my older friends have ‘em made me like how cool they looked, then came the art of it. My brother got his first tat at 15 and it was our family symbol. I was going to get the same one. From there I appreciated more of the symbolic and sentimental side to tattoos. 

Tattoo ideas?
 I’ve had the same ones since I was little.

Garden of roses on my shoulder, off my mom’s name, Rose.

Wrap-around piece of a cheetah, tribute to my mother’s love of cheetahs and leopards, and also a tribute to our family pet cat, AJ

Family symbol, my brother has it on his neck

“Frank, Rose, Gabriel, Ellyssa, Russell” - family names

I was going to get some volume knobs, somewhere on my arm.

Pretty much that’s it though. That’s all I’m MOST CERTAIN about youknow?

Maybe when I’m 21 I’ll get ‘em. It’d be SICK to get them now though but I’ll wait until the time is right!

MATERIALISTICALLY I might add. Don’t take this toooo crazy serious.

1. Full arm and hands tatted, or just a tattoo..I’ve been lazy since 15

2. Car

3. Condo

4. Jeremy Scott Adidas’s

5. Nike Air Yeezys

6. A haircut

7. Drivers license

8. Some blazers

9. Loafers

10. An insane amount of button ups

More to come, this is 10 off the top of my cranium.

I’m ready for whatever they bring me.

Let’s work.

Focus.

No holding back from here.

Let’s make them all proud.

So lately I’ve been way more content with everything seeing as though I went through such a dump the past 3 months. I was going through a lot, and I still am, but over the coarse of 2 weeks I stayed with a friend of mine named Phil (MarsMG rep) and learned some things off him and the way he lived his life. I tapped back into the person I once was when I was single in November with less worries. I’ve had a couple things hit me over the head and get the best of me which lead a lot of my friends, and my girlfriend at the time to a weird impression of me.

I cried and complained a lot, and talked too much to people and didn’t hear about their input to my situation..I didn’t even get to hear their situations which made me very selfish towards people’s feelings.

I’m telling ya’ll all of this because I like keeping it real through this blog. I’d like to tell you guys that I’m a normal guy with normal things. Please know that. 

If ya’ll do know, I broke up with a woman named Jenny a month or 2 ago. We had a very public relationship and I wrote a crazy song about her that might be my single in a couple days. It’s crazy. I try every day to get her back but she doesn’t like my type..Which is a travelling artist…Lol. It’s okay though, she’s my best friend that gives me advice every now and then. If you’re reading this, a big change will be what you see from now on. I’ve honestly seen who I should be, and it’s awesome. I’m awesome.

Anyway, I got a show in Vancouver. The 29th at Nikkei Hall. Be there, or be cubical. Also..

Flagship

June 3rd 2012